Goodbye Past

My senior year of high school was just for me and my "crew". We lived our final year of high school out like it was just another year. I had my girls Mercedes, Bridget, Angelica, Terry and can't forget about my boys Ray, Rasaan, Julian, Bibas, Kj, Jon, Erik, Ali, well lets just say the list can go on and on and on. Each one of us was the same but different. We had grown from sophmore year associates to senior year close friends. We all couldn't wait to graduate high school but we never really thought about what would happen afterwards. We never imagined that only a few months later most of us would lose contact. We had been through so much with each other, break ups, new relationships, hard times, pains. The night of my 17th birthday party one of my now good friends was in a car accident leaving my house. I had to return to the party after seeing her lying in the grass bloody and unconsicous. In the end as sad as it may sound, that brought all of us closer together.

A joke us seniors had going since I broke up with my ex was his "new" girlfriend.  Her name was Tabitha and she was a senior at our school. She was in so many classes with all our friends. Only one thing (one real thing anyway) was wrong with Tabitha...she was invisible! No one had ever seen her before but apparently she was everywhere. People had only talked to this no existent person on the phone but apparently she was "around". Was this just some cock story he had pulled to make me jealous because unlike him I had moved on and thought I was happy. Or maybe he lost his mind and really thought someone was there! Who knows, whatever the case we all had a good laugh.

Life after high school is a whole new beginning. It's like nothing that mattered in the beginning, matters anymore. You gain new interests in life, love and friends. After seventeen years of life I feel like I'm finally learning who Ashley is. Does it take something as big as graduation to truly discover yourself? Or what about discorvering new relationships, friends and lovers? As I embark on this new chapter in my life, I'm excited and nervous. How different will it be, How similar will it be? Whatever the expierence I'm ready and waiting for the best.

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